To me, You are the most beautiful person. I know that feelings can’t be weighed or compared, but for this lifetime, please trust that I have never loved anyone deeper, wanted to be with anyone more than you; neither have I gone this far, tried this hard, spent this much effort to be with anyone other than you. You made me laugh, cry, happy, angry, love, hate. You made me feel things. You made me human. You made me realize that I can be more when I try to, and even if I can’t, it’s ok. It’s true that you have your own shortcomings, but you are perfect in my eyes. And I don’t know why I chose to hurt you in the worst possible way. I don’t have any thing to say for myself. Would it change anything if you could just see how much I’ve written about you in my diary, about every little things, it’s full of you? Would you forgive me at all, if you could read all these thoughts I’ve noted down, feelings I’ve transcribed into words? Would you understand why I did what I did if you could see how my stupid logic works in my head? My life is a boring, forgotten cobweb, I don’t have anything worth writing about, but you appeared and changed every thing. You were my world. And I destroyed it. I destroyed you. I broke your heart along with my own into a million pieces. I am not worthy of your love. I’m undeserving of you. I’ve lost you forever, yet forever you remain in my memory. Now this is the true distance I won’t ever be able to cross. You’re never here, but you’re everywhere.
Please don’t ever forgive me. Please hate me to your heart’s content and curse me in your sleep, if that’s the only way you could remember me. I want to be remembered by you, though I know it’s unforgivably selfish of me to even want that.
But 親愛的..let me call you 親愛的 for this last time, just forget me completely as if we’ve never met. I wish you happiness from the bottom of my heart. I pray that I can transfer whatever left of my luck and happiness to you.
As for me, I will never forget you. You’re the most wonderful thing that ever happened to me. I don’t regret anything between us except that regrettably it still comes to an end as everything else that will eventually meet their unescapable fate in life. But please keep smiling, please be yourself, please be happy. I will dream about you, that one day, somewhere, we will meet again, and is able to smile warmly at each other from the bottom of our hearts.
“也許在另一個平行時空，我們是在一起的.” 親愛的，你是我唯一的超人. 你一定要開心，快樂，幸福的過每一天. 我覺得我真的很幸運才能遇見你.